Sad face..

Just posted by St Vincents…

My name is Isaiah and I was matched on Tuesday September 6, 2011 for the following reason -
Isaiah has been matched with a recruited family!

Im actually going to cry…

I had a gut feeling that I should check on updates to see if anything has been posted about Isaiah.. Well, there was one.. Hes being adopted. I am so happy a family is going be adopting him but I wish it was ours.. I know that we will find the child that is meant to be ours.. Just another bump in the road. I will always remember that little face, no matter where this adoption takes us!  :*(

One more thing.. He needs a middle name, doesnt he??

So we are still praying that this works out with Isaiah and the hubby and I talked about middle names.. We wanted something strong, something with meaning so after all of our options, we agreed on… Matthew! Isaiah Matthew, which also means “A gift from god”.. Pretty much PERFECT!!

Isaiah & Emma! They go together well!! :D

So many children need homes!!

Today the agency we are using for our second adoption, sent me packet of material to read over before our meeting Monday.. MONDAY!! Reading the information that St Vincent sent over is making me sad!! I feel so sad for all of these children! The way I see it, Michigan has over 400 children that need to be adopted, times that by the 49 other states and then by all of the other countries.. There are about 118,000 children who are waiting to be adopted! If 1 in every 1000 people, actually adopted a child and not a newborn, every child would have a home! Common people, you cant tell me that you have never thought about it! 40% of people consider adoption at one time in their life but very few act on it! I get the need to have your own children and one day, I hope I am able to but once it does happen if ever, I know that I will have my children that we adopted that are just as much my husband and I as our biological kids! I wish people would think about this! It is MINIMAL to adopt from your own state when a child is a ward of the state. And I mean MINIMAL. You have to pay for court fees & new birth certificates. Thats under $500. We paid $5000 for our daughters adoption! I just wish people would consider adoption. I know that it can get pricey and when you add international adoptions, the fee’s only exceed but it is SO worth it. When you give a child a home, when you become a childs family, you can imagine the good things that is doing for that child!! Ok, rant over.. I need to change my Bachelor major to social work I think! Ha.

awfulalyssa:

Take my hand, and we’ll make it, I swear. <3

 Love this!!!

awfulalyssa:

Take my hand, and we’ll make it, I swear. <3

 Love this!!!

By the way, this is Isaiah!

By the way, this is Isaiah!

There’s your sign…

So all I have been doing is praying for a sign that Isaiah is meant to be ours, I know in my heart that he is but its nothing that I can just snap my fingers and make happen. Yesterday, Emma & I went to pick up a pizza and I walked in and on their bulletin board is fly-er and it says “Benefit for Baby Isaiah” and I know that was my sign. How many pizza shops, on that day, have that sign? Why did I even choose to order pizza for dinner? When I got home, I barely ate a piece! And now, I am sitting here crying because I know that we could give him such a good home and we would be such a great family for him and there is nothing that we can do right now! We have to sit here in wait and while we wait, hes sitting in a foster care probably wondering if hes ever going to have a family again, wondering if hes going to be loved again and I want all of that for him. Ive never even met this child, Ive never seen more then a picture and a description and I love him already! It sounds crazy, but this is making me so upset! Our orientation with the agency isn’t for 10 days and we still have to do the some study amendment and talk to our case work and his case working, if hes still in the system. I just know what I want and I know that its meant to be. Its so hard to not be impatient, its so hard to not want everything right now! I wish there was a way that he could know that we are doing everything that we came to make him a part of this family! I constantly get asked what will I do, because I will miss the first 5 years of his life and all I can say is that “that’s his past and the only thing we can do, is look forward to our future together and all of the memories and moments that we will share. I may his first laugh, his first step and a lot of other first, but there are so many first that I can experience as his mom”.. So for now, nothing new but I am ready to get this going! xx

And so it begins..

A few days ago I was checking out Michigan’s adoption website, when I came across a little boy and all I can is, it was love at first site! Hes perfect for us and when I think about him, I can see my future being his mother! I called our agency the next day to get information on the little boy and as usual they didn’t call me back! So today I took the next step and found another agency that I am happy to be working with! We talked for a while, set up the information & scheduled our orientation for the agency! All I can say is, can it PLEASE be September 12th already?? I want to start this! She told me that Michigan tries to place children as fast as possible and that I need to expect that someone may adopt Isaiah before we are finished with the process.. All I could respond back was “that wont happen, because hes meant to be our son”. I know that there will be that chance but if its meant to be, he will be ours! I am so excited to this again, I absolutely love being a mom to Emma and I know that it will be just as great, having two kids!

Adoption DOS!

Here we go again! Ready to start our second adoption!! We were so blessed to have found our daughter through adoption and now that she is 13 months we are going to try this again! Just a little different though, this time we want to adopt an OLDER sibling! Excited to star this journey again, I cant wait to be the mother of TWO!

Daddy, mommy &amp; Emma! Love this little family of ours!

Daddy, mommy & Emma! Love this little family of ours!